“ The hardest thing in life is to live without telling lies ... and without believing in one’s lies. ”
 Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Demons (1872). copy citation

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Author Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Source Demons
Topic life lie
Date 1872
Language English
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Note Translated by Constance Garnett in 1916
Weblink http://www.gutenberg.org/files/8117/8117-h/8117-h.htm

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“Oh, where are those friends whom I have insulted with my friendship all my life? And all, all! Savez-vous ... perhaps I am telling lies now; no doubt I am telling lies now. The worst of it is that I believe myself when I am lying. The hardest thing in life is to live without telling lies ... and without believing in one’s lies. Yes, yes, that’s just it.... But wait a bit, that can all come afterwards.... We’ll be together, together,” he added enthusiastically. “Stepan Trofimovitch,” Sofya Matveyevna asked timidly, “hadn’t I better send to the town for the doctor?”” source