“ Kurtz—it was ordered I should never betray him—it was written I should be loyal to the nightmare of my choice. ”
 Joseph Conrad, Heart of Darkness (1899). copy citation

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“«There was an agent buttoned up inside an ulster and sleeping on a chair on deck within three feet of me. The yells had not awakened him; he snored very slightly; I left him to his slumbers and leaped ashore. I did not betray Mr. Kurtz—it was ordered I should never betray him—it was written I should be loyal to the nightmare of my choice. I was anxious to deal with this shadow by myself alone—and to this day I don't know why I was so jealous of sharing with any one the peculiar blackness of that experience.
«As soon as I got on the bank I saw a trail—a broad trail through the grass.” source

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