Gerda Rhoads, My past is mine (1954)
“ There was no color out there at all. The posters, the neon signs, people's clothes were just shades of grey, if they weren't black or white. I looked into a mirror on the side of a store window, and my own maroon tie was just a sort of darkish grey. It was as if everything, all life, had become a black and white movie. ”
Gerda Rhoads, My past is mine (1954)
“ But I dreamed at night, and I dreamed in color, and then woke up to the colorless world. After a while the color went out of my dreams too."I went to see the psychiatrist finally, not because I really expected any help or explanation from him, but just to be doing something. I told him the whole story. That was the last time I told it, and it was over five months ago. He made a diagnosis. He said that because of some insecurity in my emotional life, some happening in my childhood, no doubt, I had needed to construct a wholly individual world for myself. ”
Gerda Rhoads, My past is mine (1954)
“ I've got pretty used to the grey world, and I work in black and white and tone. But inside of me I can't believe the psychiatrist, and I guess I don't want to. I guess I keep hoping all the time, and I was very sad just now, looking at the autumn trees."Eddie sat in silence for a while, until he realized with embarrassment that he had been fixedly staring at the man next to him. ”
