Fyodor Dostoevsky,
The Brothers Karamazov — Part III, Book IX, Chapter 9
(1880)
“ I accept the torture of accusation, and my public shame; I want to suffer and by suffering I shall be purified. Perhaps I shall be purified, gentlemen? But listen, for the last time, I am not guilty of my father's blood. I accept my punishment, not because I killed him, but because I meant to kill him, and perhaps I really might have killed him. ”
